I'm Just Curious **Updated***

Why is it that , my child's rape was allowed to go on for two years (between the ages of 6 and 8), because the perp was supposedly an, "informant," with the big wig dealer/legit biz man/white long time local/perp's sugar daddy being his roommate STILL, and I cannot find a lawyer to help me sue.

I have case in points where her visits should have stopped when I pulled up to a drug bust going down, but was told the warrant was "bad" because "cops cannot get a search warrant because they saw something illegal on private property."  That was what I was told, and that is wrong.

Or when I took him to court for contempt as he took my child out of state with this "sugar daddy" of his, even though there was a "no contact"  clause in our agreement about him as he had 3cnts of corruption of minor charges, and being as the judge refused to give a ruling (yes I have this all in court doc's) so my then 8 yr old had to suffer a final rape.

Is everyone in the state corrupt??  Is everyone on this biz guy/sugar daddy's payroll???  Because that is what it's beginning to feel like.



God......help me/us, PLEASE.

ONE LOVE....and please, Pray for Omama.  Pray some good will come from all of this.

Many Blessings

***UPDATED***

I had a reading a few months ago by Bill Philipps.  And he told me something others have told me, that I MUST release my anger I have towards all of those involved as it's keeping their fate from befalling them.  So as hard as it is, that is what I am trying to do.  I've put it out there, this post, my blog, even though I was forced to start it for a Psy class, has really been my vehicle for crying out, screaming really, of just how much pain I am in, and justifiably so (the kid had therapy, but what about me?  Aside from being being offered legal drugs -which not in a million years would I, there is/was nothing, nothing for me but to grit my teeth and try to walk bearing this weight).  So as of today, the end of the first week of July 2012, I am going to try to walk forward, without bearing the anger, or even the memory of all of this.  I aim to walk into the light, worrying only of each step of the mountain of success that I aim to climb.  Thus, everything, is going to be ok, no, everything IS going to be alright.

Thank you and GODBLESS, always.  ~ Love, the mama behind this machine

It's A Start

Well, it is a start.  A step in the right direction.  Lancaster County taking steps to change the way sex abuse crimes are handled.  However, to say that, as a woman quoted in the article states that she, "hadn't ever heard that such things existed, " I'd gamble more that she just wasn't aware that it wasn't acceptable behavior.  Women are still deemed less then here.  They are still thought of as merely being meant for the service of man.  And the younger the better.  One of the first things I was told when I moved here, (because I was five months pregnant) was something which stuck out to me as odd, but it was by an Ephrata Hospital OBGYN nurse who on my very first visit said, "You know the Amish men break in their daughters.  That's why they have so many kids with disabilities."  Honestly, no I didn't know this.  I had no idea.  I hadn't really even known of Amish people either aside from a National Geographic article I had read.  I grew up outside of NYC for Godssakes.   However, what I have found since I have lived here for over ten years now is, often the Lancastonians blame the prevalent acceptance of sex crimes against women and children on the Amish culture.  Whereas, I am finding and have found, this is a cop out on the local's part.  It's much deeper and far more widespread than that.

Again, the Sandusky case = the TIP of the iceberg.  Sad but true. 

Why Is The Great State of PA So Corrupt?

Seriously.  Can someone riddle me as to why.  I've heard from others, such as the mayor of Dallas (via my birth mother) that I needed to look at it this way, "Who the hell goes to law school and chooses to practice in PA (not counting philly) unless you were from there to begin with?"  Good point.  It's the only thing I can sort of explain.  And it would account for the how's and why's the "good 'ol boy" network is still in play.

Last night on PCN I happened to catch the Q & A with the author, director and kids of R. Budd Dwyer.  The film, (which I had missed but is going to be on PBS 01/22 at 11:30pm and if I get my homework finished I will surely watch) they were there discussing is called, An Honest Man: The Life of R. Budd Dwyer.

I'm sure everyone has seen the clip of Dwyer's televised suicide.  However, what he wanted to bring to light was just how deep the levels of corruption run in the state of PA.  WHY?  Why? WHY???  It's funny, because of all the places I've lived in my lifetime, this place is by far my most favorite.  It's scenery and beauty is beyond compare.  And yet what I've learned here, from what goes on and get's hidden by the natives of, say the county I am in, is Satanism at it's finest (but then again if you research The Order of the Red Rose, it is satanism at it's core.  You'll have to read The Monster of Florence to understand).  People tell me to leave, but why should I leave? Why can't we just shed light all the evil beings which live and breed here and put an end to it once and for all?

I'd also like for everyone to check out the site, Yardbird.com.  It's the author of the book this film was based on webs' site and man, does he go for the gold.  His investigative skills are beyond glorious and he really puts himself on the line by bringing attention to these crimes.

The levels of perversions which have corrupted this state run deep.   And it's the Children who are their fresh meat.  If anyone has any insight into why the state of Pennsylvania is so corrupt, please share your thoughts with me.

And may God (bless &) save this queen.
Godbless